If you want to see what we are praying about go HERE.
Tonight I was looking at Emma's back while I was massaging it. I mean really looking at it. From the perspective of what "normal" might look like, it's just a mess. There are so many bones out of place and a non functioning hip and leg. There's a scar across her lower back that is about 8-10" long that looks like someone could have cared less how they sewed it up. (this was her one and only surgery at 11 mo. old for her SB)
I was touching it tonight and really "feeling" it.
I know most people my steer clear of even touching it. She is very 'boney' --
So that means you can actually see some of the bones particularly on her back almost protruding. I wish I could share a picture with you, but that would be pretty personal for her. Suffice it to say, I think many people have steered clear of really offering her much physical touch/affection in life because it's almost awkward to hug her because you don't really know where to wrap your arms around her boney crooked frame. I only say this because reality is what it is.
Yet, tonight I looked at it.
I mean really looked at it.
I truly wonder what is all going on inside of there.
Not much of it seems to make sense.
But, I'll tell you what made a whole lot of sense toninght.
I kept coming back to sections of Psalm 139 in my head.
I kept thinking about how intricately God Knows Emma.
I kept thinking about how He Wove Her Together in her mother's womb and how she was fearfully and wonderfully made.
How He has had her in the palm of His hand all along.
So tonight...we pray this Psalm over Emma.
We pray the knowledge of our Heavenly Father--the Great Healer and Deliverer would be seen and known.
I know it would be a long prayer to pray this...but could you insert "Emma" in for "Me"?
(I'm not highlighting anymore because I found it hard to read)